This world does not accommodate me

People don't understand the full crippling effects of mental illness until it's them and most people claim to have depression and anxiety, because they felt down once, but fail to note that not everyone is cured after a visit to the GP and some Fuloxotine.

I’ve made a huge mistake and I want to die

I can't do this anymore. I can't do what I was doing forever. So you see, I have nowhere to run and this point. I'm all out of road to run and hills to hop. I'm stuck, once again, at a crossroads but I'm pretty sure all roads lead to a big drop with nothing but concrete at the bottom.


Blogs evolve with their people

Wow! This blog has laid long forgotten in the back of my mind. It is not because I am well. It is simply a product of my lack of consistency and ever changing lifestyle. So much has altered for me at such a swift pace these last few months, I think I have tangled myself…

Backtracking, social media pressure and inconsistency

People like myself very often need to protect themselves from others problems and need for attention. We also regularly require isolation time just because we are unwell. 7 months ago I quit Facebook for good. I deleted it outright and sacrificed all my memories there with it. I was sick of people arguing or being…

I think my SJW stopped working

I feel down again. I can always tell when I am down because cause I stop feeling anything at all. I no longer feel driven or motivated, I don't want to do anything, if that which I love and I drop all my routines. It's to early in the month for PMS and there are…

Who owns you?

We all question ourselves. We all have doubts as much as we have hopes and dreams. Sometimes the question is as simple as 'what shall I wear?' Or it can be a little more complex, with questions like "am I ready to apply for that job?" Trauma and products of (ex anxiety) can make answering…

My skin itches

My skin sometimes itches. Seemingly from nowhere and for no apparent reason. I claw and claw until my skin is pink and tingly but still it itches. I twist my body like a rope trying to reach all the places where I itch and my organs feel crushed under the contortion and yet I cannot…